The Most Awesome-est!!!! event of e year fer me is Singfest'07. It was top-notch!!! all e performances was excellently excitin'!!!I got to be in a MOSHPIT!!!haaa.. can't wait fer next yr'z event.The one tt stands out to me is Gym Class Heroes,haaa..ya la my fav. band,of coz!!..huahuahuahua...well i'll let e vid do e talkin' la..will put up pixz soon bt u cn check it out at my myspace @ www.myspace.com/phaz84 fer e pixz cz i too lazy to make e pixz small n post it here.hee..juz hav a look dere n i'll jz post e vid here...
I was god damn tired til nw cuz i havnt really slept frm yesterday cz after e event i straight went to werk at 4am n came back home at 2pm den aft i slept til 8 n lata i'm goin' to werk again at e same tym..hee...siow arh!!!bt overall e show was a 2 thumbs up!! :>
k diz iz nt a funny vid bt itz a song tt has been my fav love song since it came out til nw. i don know y bt it describe every broken relationship n representz each n every person in e werld cz we all will face it. I've been facin' it too many tymz n i cant deny tt it hurtz n lyk wat e song says,i did tt too. Jz thought of sharin' diz vid wif all of u.
I've been havin' problemz bt i'm nt gonna dissapoint u all wif diz video below..a kid tryna feel e music from britney spears n singin' to it bt then...k nvm..go n watch ;P
Juz came back from werk n i had fun.The first tym i was doin' checkin' in n i gotta say,was nervous!!!nervous tt i will do e check-in wrongly bt i got a gd mentor who teaches me stuff n i didn't learn when i was training. I was shakin' when i did my 1st check-in bt slowly confidence builds up n aft a few passengers i was gd to go bt then when it comes to a group of e pax checkin' in together i started to get nervous again..haa...bt i did it tho itz slow bt i did it.. :> all in all it was a gd day fer me tho when i start to think abt tt thg,it brought me down alil.
2mr'z i gotta go fer a course at T2 n i hav to be dere at 9am.Oh mann..;p
Last thing i wana add is i miss someone n hopin' someone miss me too. i donno y bt kept thinkin' abt it everyday n jz can't get it out of my mind or my system.But hey,i know i cant have ever again cz it wil juz b in my mind n ttz e closest i will ever get bt still i'm missin' tt someone.Itz been a rough n hard 2weekz bt i manage to hold on to it n nt givin' up jz yet. I juz hope tt 1 day it will turn around n will get what i want in my life nw.
ttz abt it fer nw,will update u guyz on e course 2mr hopin' it will b fun too.. :>
Facin' e end of e tunnel, with nowhere to go or turn back to, can't let it out or write in a journal, with no one to comfort on or show emotions to,
life is nt a story where u have a happy endin', it cn turn dark n cant see whr ure goin', ttz when u will fall hard to e ground, e only person who cn pick u up is urself,
fallin' is e easy part, gettin' up is e hardest, leadin' u to all kinds of pain, regrettin' tt u shuld bring a light so u wldn't fall,
hatin' life every single nyt cuz of e pain, parts of my so-called happy life is fadin', wishin' it wld turn around 1 day, bt it will not happen to what i have said,
i donno wat to do anymore..i'm thankful fer some ppl tryna cheer me up bt i'm sorry to say tt didnt help me much. i realli appreciate wat u all wanted to do fer me,i realli do bt at e end of e day it will come down to me to make e choice. i tried hard to be smilin' n havin' fun bt sad to say itz jz pretendin' n trust me itz nt a way to go about. Pretendin' to be in ur best shape is nt helpin' me get better,itz gettin' worst,i'm gettin' worst. So if u see me on e streets lookin' lyk an arsehole,i'm sorry cz i'm in no state to b actin' happy or wateva.
I dont even know wat i'm feelin' or y am i feelin' diz way fer. I dont know y every single nyt i will feel shitty n all crappy thoughts will conquer me n emotions started to show. itz nt bcuz of relationships..or does it? i do not know bt wateva it is i jz hate it n problemz keep occurin' n i'm tryin to hold on as tightly as i cld bt fer hw long can i do diz fer? how long can i survive diz catastrophe?
Juz as i thought my life is goin' well...thiz happen..
i got a new job which i look forward to had jz turn e otha way. cuz of my problem & mistake in e past affects it. nw i'm nt even sure if i'll be gettin' it. ryt nw i juz feel lyk givin' up diz job which i dnt relli want too. My future nw is in doubt n i juz donno wat to do anymore except wait fer somethin' miracle to happen. Some of y'all know why cuz i've told u. if i dont get thru,i hav to wait 1 year in order to get it. i mean wat e hell!!!i'm finishin' it in 3 mthz so watz e big fuzz n why do i hav to wit til a year again?? I juz dont undastand e system n e fact tt i'm alrdy on training n i've gt my appointment letter n startin' my shift werk next wk. Watz wrong wif jz approvin' it. Watz all tt yellow ribbon thgy n givin' a chance to start fresh all tt crap?? If i dnt get it,den i hav to start again to look fer otha jobs which i dont want to. haizzz....
Nw i jz dnt feel lyk goin' to training 2mr n my morale is so low tt it relli hurts. My future is nt clear nw n i hav to worry abt diz thg til i dono when. Bravo la..aku suker cam gini..
I've waited 3 weekz fer my appeal n when dey sent e letter dey can state dere tt dey wil consider it n i hav to call them everyday to know my result n when it finally came,dey cn say i hav to wait 1 more yr to get it aft my actual date ends...haizzz wat a good job dey r doin'...terrific.
i jz dont wanna say anymore la. itz hopeless n my strezz iz comin' back. Diz addin' to my previous strezz n all i cn say is my lifez sux n itz gt no future nor a career to hold on to..Bravo again la phaz..
