hate me? then PISS OFF.

Hey all!!!...mann what a day at werk,pheww!!!Itz tirin' cuz ryt now we are short of manpower n there's alot of things to do.If any of u guyz n only guyz are interested to werk at ESPRIT Warehouse,buzz me n i'll try to hook u up aite.After werk i met my Hunny,FINALLY!!!been missin' her so much!!!!We went to City Hall n walk ard Marina Square ferawhile,met her Lush matez at esplanade awhile n went back.OH yeah if anyone knowz any part-time job please let me noe,she's findin' 1 so i'm helpin' her to look ard.Thx!!Anyway Congratz to LUSH fer gettin' to enter e 2nd round of e OVERDRIVE Competition.I'm proud of my hunn n all e matez.I'll support all u guyz all e way!!!Now they r practicin' fer another comp. n thatz DanceFloor!!.How active are they??Fer my rappin' thingy,i'm juz gonna concerntrate on The Cartelz n WDC album,performance wise,juz relax ferawhile.hehe.Klau saper2 nk bagi slot..siler la contact,hehe.well back to LUSH,Gd Luck Fer The Both Compz aite!!!And e excitin' part of what happen today otha den meetin' my hunny is that she bought me a gift,how sweet..How can i not LOVE MY HUNN... She's e best,thx fer e gift hunn,love u sooo much!!!I will use it wheneva i go out with u k hunn,hehe...Well thatz all fer now n today has been e 2nd day of my probation n countin'..haha...peace..

phazZzdEe
Lovin' u more each day

I mayb strong n bad tempered at tymz n can be hard on someone i dont lyk but when it comes to e person i love,i become soft n i admit i will cry fer e person tt i truly love,be it my family or her.I don't usually cry out of a sudden but if anythin' were to happen to them i will become soft-hearted cuz i'm afraid i'll loose them forever.Hey a gentleman do cry n i'm proud to say tt i did cry.I just don't lyk to see them get hurt,it'z just in my nature.

To all who already know e problem about me gettin' into trouble,well i'm relieve to say that it'z finally over n all i need to do ryt now is to follow what my P.O. n e judge had given me.15mthz of probation n all e stuff n i need to attend to.It was a stubborn mistake tt i did n cause trouble to e ppl ard me lyk my family,relatives & frenz.I wanna say tt i'm sorry fer what i did n i won't ever wanna do it again.Once is enuff n aweek of sufferin' hs truly brightened up my eyes n make a change.Lyk i said b4,i'm now livin' a new life n so far itz goin' to e right direction.Been werkin' hard lyk hell cuz all i think abt now is money n my future.

My love life is great too cuz i finally found e person tt i truly love n she's one of a kind.Been talkin' about her alot have i..hahah..She'z great i tell u!!!Neva had a love lyk diz b4.Altho i did somethin' wrong earlier today n i'm truly sorry,i wont do it again,she still love me n stood by me.I wish i cld hug her n cuddle wif her ryt now n neva let go!!N Kiss her!!!!hahaha....I love u hunn n lovin' u more each n everyday!!can't wait to see u on thursday n now i will definitely see u...It'z e truth as i truly miss u lyk hell...lYka dOnnO!!!hahaha...well thatz all...i'm tired n i'm werkin' 2moro morning!!!peace out!!

phazZzdee
lovin' u more each day

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What will happen to me 2moro???I don't know but i'm feelin' nervous,worry n sad ryt now.What if somethin' happen to me n i don't get to see my family,my frenz n especially her.We juz started our realtionship n now i'm afraid of losin' her.I promise myself tt i will neva do diz stupid n regretful thing again.I'm scared deep insyd n how i wish things are different.I can't change back e tym,it's faith tt led me to be in diz situation.Whateva happens,i juz wanna say to my family n frenz tt i love u all n i'm sorry fer all e hard n bad things tt i've cost.

To HER: How wonderful can u b hunn??u were awesome.I'm very proud to have u in my life now.Tho we juz started our relationship,i feel safe n comfortable.U've change my miserable n useless to somethin' bright n has a future.How cool can u b??I will neva eva leave u as i'm madly,deeply n truly in love with u.No otha can match e way u made me feel.All my past relationshipz is juz a lesson fer me to learn so when i met u,i know how to treat u well n with respect.I love u soo much n if anythin' do happen,remember tt i will alwayz love n care fer u no matter what!!!Thx B,fer e great tymz we had,Ur name is carved to my heart fer e rest of my life...takin' care all...

-phaz-

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wazzup all!!!!..well i juz gt back from werk,oh mann itz realli a tirin' day fer me,my hunny told me if i miss her den go down to her werkplace.I do miss her alot(padahal baru 1day tk jumper,huahua)but sorry hunn i'm too tired,i wanna rest myself at home k??hehehe.Last weekend fer n past 3 dayz i've been meetin' my hunny n it'z worth it,i dont mi9nd even wakin' up b4 e crack of dawn fer her,hehe.I love meetin' her,wish she lives ard bedok soon,so cn meet her more often,hahah.She got e OverDrive Competition thingy yesterday mornin' so i've been followin' her to her practice n yesterday woke up early in e mornin' ard 7am juz to escort her to e competition at esplanade box office or somethin' lyk tt.It was a close audition so i juz waited outsyd fer her n when she n her group LUSH came out,they were happy!!!She said e judges gave thema good commentz n now they juz hav to wait fer e cal on wednesday whetha they get in to e next round or not.GD LUCK HUNN!!!I'm bsyde u all e way n LUSH TOO!!!They all were great,they know what they want n when they dance,they have this fullest passion fer it n will alwayz do an awesome job!!!Gd JOb All!!2dae my hunny is werkin' til closin' so nt meetin' as i'm tired but 2moro mayb,after my important thingy tt i hav to attend to n after that hopefully i get to meet her.Missin' her already,haha..lYka DoNNo!!!Well we took picz of our tym spend 2getha,itz on top s u cn see,hehe....Well i'm tired so c ya..taki' care dudez n dudettez n oh ya hunn,I LOve U!!!hehe,sempat!!

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Hey...I wanna share wif u guyz my 1st Dinner & Dance fer ESPRIT.It was AWESOME!!!hahha.Everyone werkin' fer ESPRIT was sportin' enuff that they can wear all tt costumes.The DnD theme was Blockbuster so we hav to wear lyk all those blockbuster movies.For e Warehouse syd n Head Office was Harry Potter so we hav to wear lyk one but me n PD decided not to cuz we'll be enterin' e ESPRIT Idol group competition tt'z worth $2k fer e 1st prize.So we wore lyk The Godfather in e movie Scarface.And fer e other Retail syd was Moulin Rouge,Star Wars,X-Men,X-Men Returns,Flinstones & The MAtrix.The coolest costumes were StarWars,Darth Vader,Yoda all was dere sia,hahah.I'll show u e pixs once i gt all from PD.BTW we didnt won e comp. tho but e gd thng was,our CEO of e company lykd all e performance that he decides tt all e competitors will get 800buckz,How cool is that!!!so me n PD will split e money into 2 n we will use some of e cash to treat all our colleagues.And e guest performer was diz illusion guy,fer e first tym in my life i saw a magic show LIVE.Videoz i will put lata on when i hav a real free tym.The Host was funny lyk hell!!!his jokes were in a sarcarstic way but damn funny!!.I had a great tym but if only my lovely gf was dere wif me,i will hav more fun!!Sorry u didnt get to go dear,mayb next tym k!!!i promise.

Anyway speakin' abt her,she's been pretty sweet.I really LOVE diz gerl very much.It'z hard fer me to nt LOVE HER!!Altho we hav alil difficulty in meetin' each otha due to commitment in werk but we will alwayz find e tym to meet n njoy ourself.I alwayz hav fun with her.I lov e way she talks,e way she smiles makes me feel lyk WOW!!,e way she laugh n all tt makes me feel lyk heaven.I've fallen more in love wif her then any of my past relationshipz.I juz wanna b by her n neva let her go!!!No1 can ruin our love as we r deeply IN LOVE wif one anotha.I hav a gut feelin' tt she's e one fer me n i've been searchin' fer all my life.Hope our relationship will blossom n love each otha fer a long tym...

I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART,
U CAUGHT MY EYES RYT FROM E START,
FROM FRENZ WE BECAME LOVERZ,
U ARE NO DOUBT MY SAVIOUR

BEEN SO LONG NEVA HAV I FELT LYK THIZ,
U MADE ME A WHOLE AGAIN WITH UR KIZZ,
HOW BEAUTIFUL & SWEET CAN U BE,
U'RE E ONE & ONLY ONE FER ME

DAYZ & NIGHT I'M THINKIN' OF U,
WOULDN'T WANNA LET U DOWN N FEELIN' BLUE,
OH HOW I NEVA FELT LOVE LYK THIZ B4,
ONLY U CAN MAKE ME FEEL DIZ WAY N EVEN MORE.

I LOVE U SOO VERY MUCH...PhaZzZdEe

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From day one you and I've been friends.
Hangin out, havin fun, chillin.
Now I know at times I got crazy, silly ways and actin shady.
You peep things in me that no one sees.
You hold it down fo shizzy.
Now I have friends I thought were true but no one more true than you.
So what am I gonna do.
It took a while for me to see how special you treated me

Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can meka me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

No other girl is quite like you.
And noone has my back like you do.
Girl you're one of a kind and you blow my mind.
And I'm glad to say you're mine.
Girl you're the one that changed me from a boy into a man.

Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

It took a while for me to see how special you treated me.
Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

-PhAZzDEe-

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Hey Guyz/Galz....Have u had e feelin' of secure n safe b4??well i am feelin' it now.I'm feelin' wonderful!!!!Ok2,let me tell u abt my life again(cam tkde citer lain lagik ker,hahhaha),1st,as u noe tt i gt a job now under ESPRIT as a warehouse assistant part-time but i'm gettin' a full-time preeetty soon n i realli lyk e job n e pay is quite good,bonus dere's CPF(Which i need it fer future use,hehe).My life is stable now fer once,i dont hav to worry abt money or anythin' lyk tt.

And e GREATEST part of my new life is tt i'm now attached to a Beautiful,Sweet,Caring & Loving girlfriend of mine.She's e most awesome lady i've ever known n i know love is in me again.She makes me laugh,smile n all tt gushy2 stuff n get me 2 be myself again.How great is that!!I neva thot i'll b in love again but she made me feel it again.She's an awesome kickass dancer in diz popular dance group,LUSH.Her name,Dee(My Baby Lush),hehehe.I guezz patience is relli a virtue.I'm glad tt i have her by my syd n when i'm with her,she made me feel lyk WOW!!!She's e person tt i will be there fer wheneva & whereva.Nobody can eva change my love n caring towards her.I feel bless n pray tt we will stay 2getha fer a longtym.I'm In LOVE BABY!!!

aite,ttz it,i'm out!!

-Phaz Out-

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Ok...Diz Thing is happenin' to me again.Bcuz of some1 i used to be so close wif tried to disturb my life again.Twice now diz had happen and now e person i relli lyk n care abt wont talk to me.Y shuld u ask some1 n tried to find out who i'm datin' wif.Y u keep doin' diz to me???It'z bcuz of u tt e gerl i wanna b wif wont b with me.I didn't go ard askin' abt ur bf,who is he n everythin' so y shuld u??Let's nt forget tt u're e one who left me hangin' in e closet.If u relli wanna know then talk to me instead,y shuld u go ask some1 else??i'm puzzled by wat game ure playin'??Y can't u juz let me move on wif my personal life n stop interruptin' it??I'm nt playin' tricks on u cuz i've gt no tym fer tt.

And now she's scared tt somethin' will happen to her again.My dear,it won't happen again,i promise!!!i won't let it happen cuz i relli care fer u n wanna b wif u.U made me feel somethin' i didn't feel fer a long tym.Once again i'm happy again n itz bcuz of u.If u trust me n believe wat i hav said then i hope we will talk abt it.Pls don't run away from diz,pls....I dont want bcuz of diz problem,u're scared tt it will happen to u again.IT WON'T!!!believe me...

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These days I feel a change, All the patterns rearranged
Though I can't explain, I know I'm not afraid
Now I realize all good things can be supplied
And they come from you
It's all brand new, and it shines right through
Shines Right Through Me
I look at you and you, and it shines right through
Shines Right Through Me
This feeling that I've found, like sleeping on a cloud
Smiling at the sky, Not even knowing why
Strange how things work out, I know without a doubt
That it comes from you
Break me out of emptiness, Lead me to your light
Anything worth having is worth some sacrifice
Laid too long in lonliness, This world was made to change
Half an hour of sunshine is worth a week of rain
Air is flowing free, it's a little easier to breathe
This soul unbound, was lost and found
No reason left to hide, I feel a light inside and it comes from you

Alryt guyz n galz..i know itz been a long tym since i post anything on my blog so i'm starting back now.It'z nt that i don't wanna but i'm juz lazy n dere'z no tym fer me to write anythin'.I'm bz wif werk,music,performance n even soccer now.As some of y'all know im werkin' with P.D. at ESPRIT Warehouse n so far,i lyk e job.Not dealin' wif customers n handlin' cashier is werkin' out preeetty well fer me.Fer music n performance,i've performed in some shows now lyk Street Festivals where my new group,The Cartelz gt 3rd place,in clubs,Singapore Poly n loads more tt i'm too lazy to type out.Comin' shows is diz saturday,12th Aug 06,Da Showcase organized by Dejahvoo Production(Da Fam).Come on down if u're free on tt day.There will be,rap comp.,dance comp.,b-boy battle n showcases n so on n so for.It'z gonna b off e hook.And as fer music recordings,W.D.C is in e process of makin' an album called War Dawg Cartel,The Album.Estimated date of release is End of December.Hopefully we'll b makin' a gig fer e album release so watch out fer it at http:/wardawgcartel.blogspot.com and The Cartelz EP will be out next year(date of release's not confirm).And fer soccer,i'm now in a so called league fer a private club.I'm playin' fer my uncles team called Marina65 FC n earlier 2daE is our 3rd match which we won 4-0,woohooo!!!.We r 2nd on e league table as we won 2 matches b4.Below is e link to e league table n fixtures,check it out,it'z under Football League Challenge 2006/07 i think.So my life had been pretty hectic nowadayz so no more clubs,no more drinkin' fer me.I've had enuff of all tt enjoyment n i juz wanna do what i'm doin' now n juz settle down.I'm happy where i am.ttz all fer now la,will update when i'm free aite...Phaz Out!!!

http://www.hrperkins.com/soccerweb/frame_trmaint.asp?index=TR1

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