Thiz song meant somethin'....listen to it n read e lyricz...
Phaz Out -------------------------
9Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Whatever I've Said,I Meant It...
Hey,it'z been awhile tt i've updated my blog so here it is,a story of how my life is now n fer e past few weekz,mthz or wateva.
For e past few weekz ive been havin a confusin n strezzin tym of my life.At first,my PS2 set nt workin n e gameshop guy told me dere'z nuthin i can do with it,it's now a condemn item.Then my Comp's turn to die,found out e cause of it is e hardisk which i've changed last week n it costs me $155.After that,she told me somethin' tt i dont really wanna hear from her.But what can i do,decided to juz b ok wif it altho i'm nt.
'I know n i understand wat u've said but u hav to rememba tt she's nt gonna b in my life anymore,so y worry??She didnt say anythin abt her nt lykin u bein' wif me,contactin me so y shuld u.She's ur fren n i undastand bt y shuld u b worryin abt her feelings tho she wont feel or care for tt matter anythin abt me anymore.U noe wat,to me diz means tt she'z ruinin' my life n i cldnt move forward wif u.Im juz sayin all of diz cuz itz how i feel.Again i'm sorry fer what had happen n if ttz ur choice u made then im juz gonna accept it.'
'To someone tt used to be very close to me,i read those things u said or type or wateva.I'm sorry to wat i've said bt ttz e truth n im juz tellin u s a fren but if u dont wan to listen,hey,itz ur call.U dont hav to brag n say stuff lyk tt.The reason i said tt iz cuz i dont wan u to fall from wat u had now n lose everythin' fer any reason tt may occur to u n im nt sayin it will happen bt who knows,life aint so perfect.Look at me nw,im already down on e ground.My life's been upsyd down n itz hard for me to get back up my feet wif u alwayz ard.Im nt sayin tt u shuldnt b ard bt at least feel how otha's feel.On V'day,wat i msgd u is juz to rememba e day,i hav no intension to win back ur heart.All i gav back then was love but nw it aint abt tt at all.I donno wat she n u talkd abt e otha day bt wat she said to me really hurts alot.Itz lyk i cnt move wheneva ure ard,makin somethin more worst then before.Now im juz stuck back to where i came from since tt day.'
I feel tt my life nw n in future ain gonna b happy.I'm gg down n down e hill n till e end.Im nt even halfway down yt n who knows somethin far more worst will happen i guarantee it will.How i know??Well,with all tt i'd mention above,addin to e list is tt i nearly gt charged with tt fuckin officer of mine n den few days ago n had an accident which im nw still in pain.It aint healthy to b me,e only gd thing tt kept me gg is my music bt for how long??i don know.Life really aint all tt perfect fer me so let's see wat happens next to me,who noes i wld b leavin diz world earlier then i expect.TTz all fer now,if i hav tym again,i'll rant somethin again. Phaz Out... -------------------------
